Alone in the Crowd

Tonight is the night I have been looking forward to this for quite some time. For once I have been invited somewhere!
I have been living in this strange darkness for to long. Someone who is somebody invited me.
I am thrilled... I don my best "cool" clothes and head for the party. This will be awesome everyone who is someone will be there. They will have to notice me...
Upon arrival I am greeted generously, but that is socially acceptable. The hostess is the nicest person in the world. I wish I could figure out a way to be related to her (a pipe dream).

I take my time getting around to those who are there at the party. Everyone is cordial, but they have just met me. They want new people in their club, but they are careful about their club. They don't want someone who will not look and act like them.
They have accepted others to their club that don't fit at first. However they always condition the members to the proper way of life.

I am a perfect candidate for their ever growing club. I come from a similar club and I already know most of the rules. They don't accept you on another clubs recommendation, you must be initiated.
Tonight is about first things, its about getting to know them. Getting to know them is my job though. They will be nice but I will have to make the strides to really get to know them. Not all members are like that. Some members choose to make strides to know me. They are not the normal member. These members are the ones who are accepted purely on what they bring to the table not for the status they offer.
I sink into a seat to make a first impression with a member. After an awkward introduction the member is distracted by another person in the crowd and turns their attention to them. I understand its easier to talk to the other, because I will take work to get to know.

I try countless times throughout the night to create a new relationship from those within the crowded place. However at the end of the night I am as I was when I arrived... Alone in the crowd.

That was the world in my view...
I hope I never view this again.